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Moving Forward

Gigi Rood has always known that she wanted to pursue a dance career. From an early age, she trained in a Russian-style ballet conservatory in Atlanta, Georgia. Under strict training, she grew up thinking that classical ballet was “the epitome of dance.” However, after fifteen seasons of ballet, Gigi began to feel suffocated in such a structured and rigid form of dance. In classical ballet, she explained, there’s a “right way to move and a wrong way to move.” Ballet training felt like “being poured into a mold.” So, as a teenager, she tried out contemporary dance for the first time and soon fell in love with its freedom of creative expression.

The discipline of contemporary dance meshes ballet with modern dance, and through less rigid movements, allows for expressive, emotional compositions. Contemporary dance is sometimes improvisational, and always emotional. For Gigi, this embrace of contemporary technique initially meant embracing explosive movements: jumps, leaps and turns. Excited by this newfound passion, Gigi decided to major in Contemporary Dance at the University of North Carolina School of the Arts Dance Conservatory, a prestigious program far from her home state. The program regularly sees graduates transition into careers as professional dancers and choreographers.

This is the situation in which Gigi finds herself this year in the program. Gigi is immunocompromised, which means she is susceptible to viruses and illnesses. She often contracts respiratory illnesses which make it difficult for her to breathe and exercise. In addition, Gigi has been clinically diagnosed with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, or POTS, which causes her to faint often, usually daily. Because of these conditions, there are certain days or portions of days where Gigi is unable to dance due to lightheadedness and fainting. However, due to the program’s strict attendance protocol, she often finds herself pushing through her symptoms and attending her rigorous classes anyway so that her grades will not be affected. This causes her symptoms to worsen, which makes her more susceptible to injury. She even once sustained a concussion during rehearsal from falling.

Gigi has found that apart from university-provided physical therapy, there is little infrastructure within the dance conservatory meant to help sick dancers. Dancers are expected to just be strong, push through their injuries and illnesses, and keep working.

Instead, Gigi tries to keep an optimistic outlook on her situation. When she is not able to dance, she tries to sit in on classes and observe the technique of faculty and other students. Before her health conditions worsened this year, she considered herself an improvisational dancer who based choreography around leaps and giant movements. However, now, due to her likelihood of fainting, she focuses on stability in her dance technique. She incorporates more floor work and intentional movement. Her recent choreography focuses more on the upper body, with a stable lower body. Since she has been forced to reconcile her health with her dance career, she has gotten to understand the capabilities of her own body in dance. She also expressed gratitude for the opportunity to observe. Even though she is sometimes not able to participate in class, she is still surrounded by the creativity of other dancers, and this gives her strength to keep going. She works even harder to embrace the limitlessness of contemporary dance, even while engaging with her own physical limits.

Currently, Gigi is fighting to retain her enrollment in her dance conservatory program and change some of the protocols around health, wellness, and attendance. She hopes for a future in dance where faculty and professionals recognize dancers as “humans,” who have needs of their own and need grace and nurturing.

Gigi is considering a career switch to contemporary dance choreography. One day, she says, “when I am healthy and I’m whole and I’m healed, I can experiment with all the art that I got to digest over the time it took for me to heal.”